Boyfriends

Today, my boyfriends cousin said that me and my boyfriend need to sleep together. Can you see how confusing that might be? We've been dating for almost 4 months. Amazing? I know. I really hope it really doesn't end. I can honestly say that I love him. especially because of how many times I've dated. That's him in my profile picture. Him me and my baby sister. That was before I dyed my hair and pierced my lip though.
His name is William.
When I see him, my heart stops. He's my world. His eyes are a amazingly beautiful shade of brown. His smile, well that's contagious! I wonder if he ever thinks about me when he's home... I hope so. Do you guys think we should sleep together? Only after 4 months? I don't know that answer for myself. Can you please help me figure it out? It would mean the world to me. Well, I'm going to go blog on my other blogs.
Bye!

Part of my day.

More testing today, I'm sure I did good... I was the first one done today, it was writing. I stayed after school today to hang out with my boyfriend, he didn't stay though... Some people think that we need to sleep together already but I don't know. Hearts break that way. Anyway, today me and a group of my friends were at the park. Me and my little brother Terry played tether ball. I won three times and he won once. I got to go for now. I hope you enjoy reading my blog. :)

My song!

Josie!

Josie is one of my best friends! I don't know how I could survive treatment without her!! She's amazing. She's such a dork too! Like today, we were driving and she had her window rolled down and this boy that was walking on the sidewalk made this really freaking funny face and it made me laugh my butt off! I don't think she even realized she was making a face! Haha that's what makes it funnier. I missed her though. We just got out of a BIG fight and I don't think we'll ever be the same. I want us to though. It's just hard to know what other people really want you know? But I also know that we're trying. I can sometimes since that she misses it too.  I hope that life for me and her go really well you know? She deserves it just as much as me and more than most people. I hope she knows what a great friend she it to me. Sometimes when I see her sad, I wanna cry for her. Like take her pain away because I know she doesn't deserve to feel it you know? I really wish she did. When she's sad, she just sits there and doesn't talk... I wanna tell her everything will be okay. When she cry's, I wanna wipe her tears away. When she's mad I wanna hold her hand and rub her back and tell her again that I'm here and everything's going to be okay.Josie is BEAUTIFUL! I want her to know that. I also want her to know that I really want that carbonated Dr. Pepper! I want her to know I really want us to go back to the way we were before all of that stupid crap that went down. I want her to know how amazing we were and how amazing we can be. Josie I love you! Love me, Luarissa. <3

Rissa & Monkey forever!

JennyGirl!

Somtimes, you just have to SMILE! Because we all know, everything is going to be okay. Somtimes you just have to LOVE! Because we know, that whatever people do to us, we're still US! I personaly believe that EVERYTHING will be just GREAT in the long run. We meet people on our lives that piss us off. We meet people that are scared to be who they really wanna be. We meet people that we love with everything we have. Most of us, are co dependant. Thats not a bad thing but sometimes people take it to far. I am very Independant but I'm also co dependant. I think to have both is amazing. There is this one girl I go to school with and we're so oppisite but yet, we're so alike. Cool aint it? Her name is Jenny. I do love her because she's my friend, but we don't hang out as much as I want to. Sometimes, I wish I was normal, I am normal but I'm sadly in treatment. I'm smiling now, while typing this because she's sitting next to me. I smell her rasberry zinger and I can tell you that just by smelling it, who she is. She's everywhere yet nowhere.she's funny yet not. She's very smart but at the same time not! :p Her laugh totally belongs to her voice, and personality. I love everybody for who they are because they are  a person and I know that there is not a single person out there like another. I know Jenny's in my life for a reason. My quest is to find out why. So I'm going to go do that now, Blog 'ya later!

Family!

Right now, I'm making cake with my best friend and foster family! Its super fun and makes me feel like a part of the family. Today, when they were in church, my little foster brother, he's three, drew a picture of his family,  I'm in that picture. I haven't officially moved in and I wont until three more weeks. Knowing he thinks I'm part of the family makes me feel A LOT better. Wouldn't you? I love him already and he makes me feel like i've always been here. Its an amazing feeling I get from him. Today, I get me and him matching balloons, he loves them. Thats enough for now, I have a cake to finish making! :) <3

Family?

Being 15 and being in Foster care is kinda sad. I love my foster family so far, but I do miss my family. Being at their house is AMAING, but its not like home. I hope to make this my home, soon, because it does feel like my house already but not in the same way.